i haven’t read your blog in a long time. but it’s funny, i was just writing about the same thing… though you have a lot more university-polish to your writing that puts mine to shame. you can bring out fun (i guess fun) metaphors i couldn’t possible ever dream up.
I want to feel. Change. Acceleration. Shifting vectors
this has a lot to do with the emptiness inside of us that destroys our relationships. we have the world around us moving and doing, yet we cannot perceive it that way for ourselves. you in particular have people you recognize all over the country and i’m envious! i’m very envious that you have so much, but i know that it’s not always perceived that way.
why?
return to your pyramid. what levels do you really have?
i looked at it just now because as i was writing my blog, i remembered a post about it that was relevant to what i was trying to say, and wanted to use the same link you had posted.
i realized that even though i’ve artificially implanted one of the most basic levels into my life (safety), it was never there naturally. it should have been placed by my family, but that went out the window as soon as my mother… well… whatever.
so i guess my sense of safety is not really there is what i’m saying.
some days it seems like it’s there but on these days, the days i’m feeling alone like this, the days i’m feeling most vulnerable and broken apart, is when i see that i’ve been alone for a long time. it’s hard to feel like life can move when that happens.
i think you’re amazing, really… even though sometimes i think you can be a little pompous. i think that if we had gotten a chance to get to know each other better it would have been a pretty cool deal.
one day we’ll get that safety we seek (or whichever level). i think this kind of stuff helps that along.
free burma! ;)