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Started a new job last Monday. Enjoying
Rose - Sun, 2010-08-29 08:37
Started a new job last Monday. Enjoying it very much so far. Doing some reference desk, responsible for some instruction, and working on a big archive project for the college archive. The archive project is the most interesting part, but also the toughest. I've been talking to some of my colleagues from school, and they gave me some very helpful ideas...I've been working on putting them together into a useful solution. I can do it. Right?
My job is at a catholic college in a very tree lined part of brooklyn. I dig it. My commute is long - but I kind of like that. Sometimes Jen and I ride the train together, we have coffee and a nice morning chat. Or when I'm on my own I can read a lot, or write a lot. Its a good easing into the day process time.
This all sounds so boring...I guess I'm just in a period of establishing a routine, after all these years of such a bizarre work schedule. There's still a little of that, cause the library is only part time. But I do feel like things are more settled now for me, which I'm glad about. I feel like I can bring some focus back to other parts of my life, like writing, like organizing my home, like my social life.
Yesterday I had a bbq for my birthday - it was a gorgeous day and the sangria flowed like...wine? When I blew out the candles I wished that everything would always be like this. But I'm not afraid to tell my wish because I know that it can never come true like that. Everything will never be like this again. [Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<insert [...] growth.>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.]
Started a new job last Monday. Enjoying it very much so far. Doing some reference desk, responsible for some instruction, and working on a big archive project for the college archive. The archive project is the most interesting part, but also the toughest. I've been talking to some of my colleagues from school, and they gave me some very helpful ideas...I've been working on putting them together into a useful solution. I can do it. Right?
My job is at a catholic college in a very tree lined part of brooklyn. I dig it. My commute is long - but I kind of like that. Sometimes Jen and I ride the train together, we have coffee and a nice morning chat. Or when I'm on my own I can read a lot, or write a lot. Its a good easing into the day process time.
This all sounds so boring...I guess I'm just in a period of establishing a routine, after all these years of such a bizarre work schedule. There's still a little of that, cause the library is only part time. But I do feel like things are more settled now for me, which I'm glad about. I feel like I can bring some focus back to other parts of my life, like writing, like organizing my home, like my social life.
Yesterday I had a bbq for my birthday - it was a gorgeous day and the sangria flowed like...wine? When I blew out the candles I wished that everything would always be like this. But I'm not afraid to tell my wish because I know that it can never come true like that. Everything will never be like this again. <Insert hackneyed quotes about change and growth.> Looking forward to it.
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Welcome to the world, Tucker Flaim!
Kate, Girl Reporter - Tue, 2010-08-24 08:08
I am thrilled beyond belief to announce the birth of our son on August 20! Seven pounds, 14 ounces, 21 inches long, with pouty lips and lots of hair. His name is Thomas but we’re calling him Tucker. We’re home from the hospital and getting to know each other at home. He is an escape [...]
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ADK -In the works
Baggens - Mon, 2010-08-23 10:06
Another journey in the cool (cold) mountains of New York's Adirondack Mountains is currently in the planning stages.
A heap of "stuff" piled high on the floor of the back bedroom... sleeping bags, coleman stove, pots, pans, all the usual junk for being on the road in search of a little adventure before winter sets in to the Adirondack National Park.
Ah yes, not to forget the Kayak which I shall latch onto the top of my 5ft x 6ft home on the road.
I'll be blogging from where ever I can find a wireless signal which is not too difficult.
I know, not too exciting relative to what one can find on the web these days but hey, there's still a considerable amount of suffering that happens to me that you all will get glee from seeing as I in the back of a cold wet pickup, laying in the fetal position at 5 in the dark morning, having desperately to go pee but refusing to climb out of my sleeping bag to do so. Embracing unrelenting conflict until one side wins (and we always know which side that is.)
Oh Intrepid Warriors of the Road! Relent to the cold.. and just get up and go..
Anyway, nonsense aside for the moment and to all of you subscribers who may chance be reading this, I will send out a notice in a couple of weeks to let you know when I am actually on the road. If any stranger has happened upon this and wish to subscribe then send me an email (bbouslaugh at gmail) and I'll put you on my listserve. (and you will no longer be a stranger as you join a small but special group of generous and good hearts)
First stop will be Martha's Vineyard.
Oh.. god..the misery of it all! Why do I do this?
Somehow I relate to this joke:
Two hunters are out in the woods when one of them collapses. He doesn't seem to be breathing and his eyes are glazed. The other guy whips out his phone and calls the emergency services. He gasps, "My friend is dead! What can I do?".
The operator says "Calm down. I can help. First, let's make sure he's dead."
There is a silence, then a shot is heard.
Back on the phone, the guy says "OK, now what?"
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The madness of 2010
Yuliya - Fri, 2010-08-20 14:51
If 2007 was the "worst year ever" (tm), 2010 is the most traveled year, even counting last year's road trip.
So far, I have left home 7 times, with 2 (possibly 3) more already planned and coming alarmingly close. 3 of those times were in-state but a considerable distance away. I drove for the entirety of 2 of those trips and a bit of the third. The other 4 have been in the Northeast (small town Massachusetts, Philadelphia, Washington DC, Baltimore), all flirting with NYC but never quite getting an extended enough stay to really get a feel for my city again. I haven't experienced that dreamy state of "home" in almost a year and I miss it. I will remedy this situation in less than a month. And between that and now, I am going to Prague and Vienna.
I told my mom that the NYC trip will be the last one and that I won't spend any more money on travel this year and she said "telling you not to travel is like telling a pig not to wallow in mud."
I am already planning my next road trip. I want to visit friends in other countries. There are weddings, babies, all coming up fast. And professionally, I'd love to go to some conferences, especially if they're in awesome cities, as they can be. I need a better income and more time and space, but the spirit is already out there, flitting from place to place, looking at beauty and ugliness, meeting people, and speaking other languages.
Hello blog-land.
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CSA Weeks 9 and 10: Full-on summer
Kate, Girl Reporter - Fri, 2010-08-13 14:32
No baby yet! Week 9: -Corn -New potatoes -Purple cabbage (a frilly, pretty one) -Tomatoes -Summer squash -Thyme -Green peppers -Cavolo nero! Oh, August. You make dinner so easy. I steamed the corn and cut it off the cob, and mixed it with some of the basil compound butter I made a few weeks ago [...]
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Happy Birthday to Brie!
Baggens - Tue, 2010-08-10 05:08
Wishing you a most great and grand birthday today O daughter and the same for years and years to follow!
May "being stupid together" with friends always be with you.
from Bob & Barbara & yer ever lovin' poppy xoxoxoxoxoxo
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Quick check-in
Kate, Girl Reporter - Fri, 2010-08-06 15:45
Hey there. No, I didn’t have a baby (yet). I just haven’t posted–I’m running around like a crazy person trying to get things done done done before he arrives. Also my camera has randomly started acting up. I bought it in April before our trip; suddenly it is really overexposing photos and washing out the [...]
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CSA Week 7: Compound butter and fabulous corn
Kate, Girl Reporter - Thu, 2010-07-29 15:49
The disaster of the previous week’s corn was forgiven once we ate this duo. Oh man, was it good! The haul: -Beets! -Corn! -Kale! -Basil! -Beans! -Zucchini/summer squash. I wasn’t going to get to the basil before it turned black and sad, so I decided to make a compound butter that I could freeze. I [...]
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The Kids are All Right
Rose - Sun, 2010-07-25 10:12
We went to see The Kids are All Right last night with my my and co. I was really intrigued by this movie for several reasons - 1. I'm a lesbian. I'm a lesbian in a long term relationship. I'm a lesbian in a long term relationship trying to have children using anonymous donor sperm. So this movie, about lesbians in a long(er) term relationship and their children conceived using anonymous donor sperm and what happens to them was of interest to me. 2. Julianne Moore is cool. 3. The media was nonstop talking about it - or at least the liberal bullshitters I spend my time with were - Slate, NY times, NPR, Dan Savage, After Ellen... Almost everyone loved the movie, but almost everyone had something to say about the...problematic plot development that I'll discuss under the cut. So of course I was going to see the movie, I have plenty of thoughts about all depictions of lesbians in popular culture, and this movie seemed to be sparking some debate about the ideas I spend so much time with. But I was sort of cringy about it at the same time, with themes so close to home, I felt more trepidation than usual heading into the theater. The fact that I was actually nervous about seeing this film just shows how uncommon it is for me to watch a story that depicts my life or something like it in a public/family setting.
The movie was good. The beginning was my favorite part. You meet the members of this family - Joni, smart, pretty, blonde girl, getting ready to head off to college. She's playing scrabble with her friends, being a cool nerd and internally working on what to do about liking her guy friend. Laser is younger and less conflicted at the moment, out skateboarding with his asshole friend. They crush and snort some sort of prescription drug, I didn't catch what it was, maybe ritalin or something, and then they roughhouse around and get yelled at by the friends dad. Laser looks on with interest while his friend gets smushed by his dad in retaliation. Jules is just around, being. She's both pretty and normal looking, cause Julianne Moore is like that. She's the one who is home to presumably make and then sit down to dinner with the kids. Nic rolls up late for the meal, bringing an air of judgmental bravado home with her, to protect and harass her family.
They eat a lot of meals in this movie. Some of the later scenes show you how broken things become by how fragmented and lonely the meals get. Then, the kids silently pick at their cereal, eating at the counter, alone together. Or, when things hit rock bottom, Nic just grabs a banana for breakfast and leaves with out speaking at all. But this first meal, before anything changes, this first meal was my favorite.
It was awesome because its not like they were some perfect family. But they were a pitch perfect depiction of a family, cause families are always not perfect. Laser is still a little jittery from whatever he snorted, his moms are wondering what is going on with him, his sister is bugged by his jumpiness. But its not like some big blow out comes, and they never do find out what he did that day. Its just that they all sit there, getting on each others nerves, but loving each other, used to each other. I don't even remember what they talked about at that meal. I just remember laughing and cringing in equal measure, cause they were really getting the lesbian relationship dynamic. In this small, really inconsequental conversations, the intense devotion, reasoning and processing behind the construction and continuance of this family was evident. Oh my god. The way Nic reminds Joni to write her thank you notes...And you can tell that Jules sort of doesn't care, but also agrees. That is dinner with your lesbian moms.
After dinner, Laser asks Joni if she will call and find out who their donor is. He really wants to know, but he can't call until he's 18. Joni is not quite as curious, which is interesting, because all the reviews acted like Joni had a burning desire to find out herself. Its quite clear that she doesn't, but her brother does.
Joni snoops around and finds the files on the donor. Another crintresting (cringy+interesting) moment for me. I have spent some time with those donor questionnaires. I have looked at those donor baby pictures and wondered who that boy became. I have tried to create a meaningful concept of a man from a handwriting sample, and you can sort of do it but you know you're making it all up. It's very obvious that you don't know that guy. You know about that guy, but you don't know that guy. And maybe you don't want to. Personally, I don't want to, but if we're successful with donor sperm, I know my children might, one day.
I know what I think and what Jen thinks about why an anonymous donor is the best option for us to create a family. But I also always wonder if I'm doing my theoretical future children a disservice by choosing this path. And then I tell myself, I'll do my theoretical future children many disservices before I'm done being their mother, why quibble about this one? But watching Joni sneak and look and decide to call... I wonder why she had to sneak and do this in the dark. These kids knew they were conceived using an anonymous donor, why didn't their parents talk to them about the possibility that they would want to find the guy, once that option became available to them? I'd love to see a story where the family is all in on the donor search. Or what happens when the donor doesn't want to see you. Point being, this is just one trajectory of this anonymous donor story, and I wish others were more easily accessible.
Whatever, eventually, the kids meet the donor, Paul. He's alright. He's a little louche, a little sweaty, into organic vegetables and fucking multicultural ladies. The kids meet him for lunch, without telling their moms. Laser is unimpressed, he wanted a more manly man, someone who respected team sports. You can tell he's got an idea of the man he himself wants to be, informed by his mothers, especially by Nic's uptight, responsible, breadwinning ways, but also a little bit by Jules' nurturing openness. Even though he's been rebelling lately, Laser wanted to see a man like that, a man more like his moms - cleaner, smarter, more upstanding. Joni's intrigued though. She needs to loosen up a little, she knows it. And Paul is nothing if not loose.
Eventually, the moms find out about Paul. The kids want to see him again, so Nic says, ok...but only after we meet him. Which I think is reasonable and fair. He comes over for dinner and you can tell Nic is trying to learn about him and care, for the kids' sake, but you can also tell she hates him and wants him to disappear. Jules gets along with him a little better. He invites her to landscape his garden, and she agrees. Nic thinks this is a spectacularly bad idea, and of course, obviously, it is.
This movie is kind of Jules' fault. She fucks the donor. She didn't have to. And you know why she wants to - Nic keeps leaving her high and dry, her kids are growing up and leaving home, she doesn't have a career, she's lonely and directionless. Its clear that she's realized the fact that she's slid into a passive role and she doesn't want to stay there, Nic doesn't want her to stay there either, exactly. Jules wants to seize something, wrest control of her situation and contribute to the family in a new way. It just sucks that she chooses to do it by fucking Paul and contributing to a storm of bullshit for her wife and children. It was the easiest thing, the thing that came along. But that was shitty Jules.
It was shitty the first time, and it was shitty the 2nd and 3rd times, and it was shitty that I had to watch Jules get banged in various positions by Paul for like, a solid eighth of the total running time of this lesbian movie.
But...it was shitty in a new way. It sucked to see Jules fuck this guy, not because you could see that she liked him better or wanted him more than she wanted to be with Nic, but because you could see that she didn't. She's using him to work out her issues and she knows she's hurting Nic and her children and she doesn't want to, and you reallllly don't want her to. You kind of want Paul to evaporate, just like Nic did. The audience is put in the position of protecting this allegedly "nontradtional" family. The man/woman relationship is the threat to family here. So that's progress in shittiness. (For more on this, AfterEllen has a really thoughtful piece about the "lesbian fucking a man" trope in this movie)
Nic finds out, in an amazingly excruciating dinner scene at Paul's house. Annette Benning really rocked it as a soft butchy lesbian. Drama ensues. The kids find out. Jules is ostracized by her family. And everyone, everyone, everyone is really done with Paul.
And then, unexpectedly, I felt bad for Paul. He shouldn't have fucked the lesbian, its true. But its not really his fault Jules came on to him. And its not his fault he fell in deep deep like with the idea of having a family. Its only when the family has problems that he finds out he's not actually in it. It takes him a while to get it though. He calls Jules and invites her to make a go of their relationship, now that the secret's out. Her incredulousness that he actually thought that could happen and her quick, clear rejection of the idea is awesome and hilarious for me. But it was sad for Paul.
Then they all have to work it out. Laser dumps his assholey friend. No one liked that kid, Laser realizes he never really did either. Now he's more clear about the kind of man he wants to be and the kind of man he doesn't want to be and this asshole who made a cast out of cardboard and duct tape is no longer a desirable companion. Joni gets drunk and deals with that dude she likes. I don't know, Joni's subplot was far less interesting to me than Laser's. She clearly has a ways to go in her journey to adulthood, and sorting out the kind of men she wants in her life, and how she wants to relate to them. Because she's older and a girl, her steps are more complicated and nuanced than Lasar's and they just didn't have time to do them justice, even though the actress who played her, Mia Wasikowska, clearly had thought about all of these things and did a great job with the time she had.
And Nic and Jules...Jules feels like shit. She's so so sorry. And Nic is so so hurt. But they're still a family. They drive Joni to college together. They love their children together. They love each other together. And like Laser says, they're kind of old to break up and start over. So you feel that they're gonna work it out. Because they made a commitment to each other, and because they created a family together and because that commitment and that creation is their life, and its not easy or desirable to walk away from that, even if it is difficult and complicated to figure out how to stay.
That's what I loved about this movie. It was about how these women worked at making their family and negotiated and re-negotiated their roles within that structure. People make fun of lesbians for over-processing everything, and yes, it can get ridiculous. But that's also one of the things I like most about my relationship, one of the opportunities being in a female female relationship affords is that you know its a negotiation of power, ongoing and open. If you have a partner you love and trust and whom you feel is an intellectual equal, that process can be really fun and sexy and challenging. In this movie, the negotiations took a fucked up turn, but in the end that's what it was about - how do you become the family you want to be? How do you become the person you want to be? You work hard at it, you maybe make mistakes, you keep working hard at it again. The straight guy in this movie didn't have to work at it, he just was himself. Which was easy and appealing, but in the end is depicted as much less fulfilling and much more lonely, and even the straight boy came to appreciate this and become a more active participant in the process of becoming himself. In this movie process makes something less than perfect, but something lovely and important, an active, activated life. The family that you really meant to have. The person that you really meant to be.
I realize that might seem a little self-congratulatory. But considering this is one movie out of all movies ever that allows me to congratulate myself and how I think and how I live, I think I get to revel in it for a moment.
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I've started meditating. I've
Rose - Thu, 2010-07-22 15:44
I've started meditating. I've done it before, once or twice in a group, guided situation, and then a few times sort of half assed using a podcast to attempt to get my flying anxiety under control (which sort of worked). I am trying now to make it an every day thing, just like 15, 20 minutes a day.
So its been three days, and I am feeling good that I have successfully taken time to meditate every one of those days. Its difficult, but I am getting somewhere. The first day I was just like, woah my ideas are making crazy shapes in my mind! They are all small and wiggly! This is hard! But I got my shit together and eventually things did calm down a bit. Yesterday I hardly had any time, but I gave it a shot anyway. It wasn't the most successful attempt, but I am glad I took the time out anyway. Even 10 minutes of quiet with no internet, no phone, no mass transit, no other people is a huge deal for me these days.
Today I finished took care of the laundry and the emails and everything I needed to address, and then really took the time to get down to business. It took a while for me to settle down of course, but I did get into a more meditative state. When I got there though, I had some complicated feelings. One of the feelings was triumph and excitement, look at me, I'm totally doing it!!! But that was distracting of course. I tried to pass through that and focus on breathing. And then...I just felt...a lot of feelings. I teared up. I wasn't sad, I haven't been sad. But I was...in that moment when I was finally quiet, I really felt overwhelmed. By nothing in particular and by everything in existence.
I'm not trying to be new agey or anything, I'm just trying to be healthy and relax. But I'm intrigued by what I apparently don't know about how I feel.
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What I did after I quit
Chelsea Motel - Wed, 2010-07-21 13:29
Nothing like my Mom's Honda for getting out of town
I quit my job on Tuesday. By Wednesday afternoon, I was winding my way over Mount Hood in easy summer sunshine, singing along to Scott Biram and John Mellencamp. I had no clear destination, just an eastward inclination to land somewhere hot and dry and far away from the city. In the trunk I kept a tent, a piece of foam, guitar, and a cooler fully stocked with pasta salad, cheap beer and Irish Whiskey. Vision Quest was on!
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CSA Week 6: Oh, right. Zucchini season.
Kate, Girl Reporter - Tue, 2010-07-20 15:01
We were at the lake for the first part of last week, thanks to many of you fabulous people. More on that after the vegetables. Ben went to pick up the share after we got home on Tuesday, while I lay flat in the air conditioned bedroom and bemoaned the lack of lake outside our [...]
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We went down to DC/MD this
Rose - Sun, 2010-07-18 20:06
We went down to DC/MD this weekend. My cousin eric got married on Saturday - congratulations Erin and Eric! Jen and I had to bring the dogs, so we ended up staying in a dog-friendly hotel in DC.
On friday we visited Jen's friend Laura and her family. She and her wife have two adorable daughters, ages about 3 and 6 months. The older one is super girly, her closet was literally overflowing with pink dresses and Disney princess garb, total cuteness.The baby was just all eyes and chompy mouth, such a sweetie face. We had a lovely time, and some revamped Dominos pizza with them. Then we headed back to the hotel, and Jen's friend Frank came by, bringing with him Jen's friend/ex Jennifer and her wife, and wife's sister. Surprise surprise, they were pregnant too! Twins! It was lesbian mom extravaganza day.
I have to admit, I had moment. We've been trying for a while, and it was just...it was just a lot to see other people already so far down the road adhead of me, when we've been planning this and working on this for like, over 2 years now. Still, we're in a hiatus period of TTC at the moment, and I'm not only OK with that, I've been really happy and relaxed and satisfied with our lives at the moment (job hunt nonwithstanding). But that doesn't change the fact that I do want to get pregnant soon, and I do want to have a baby, soon, and yeah, it was just a moment. I almost gave in to it. I thought about going to the bathroom to get weepy. But I just didn't find the moment to excuse myself, and in a moment the moment passed. I had a lovely time, and tasty fried chicken and that night I had a dream, and I don't know what it was about, but I woke up so happy.
Saturday morning we got up early to get ready and leave for the wedding. The wedding was in Maryland, about an hour away. The church was so cute. We said hi to all my family, and met Erin's family. Pretty traditional catholic ceremony. The bride looked lovely. The groom looked nervous at first, but then proud and happy. Then on to the reception. Snagged some mimosas for me and Jen. Got down to talking Lamarckian evolution and epigenetics with my cousins. Love being part of a weird and smart family. I liked that the reception didn't have fixed seating, so we could go around and talk to everyone in turn.
After the reception. we spent some time with my family. They all went swimming and we hung out by the pool and chatted. There was a square dancing competition at the hotel, and Jen got invited to join a square. She declined.
Back in DC that night, we found that the dogs had been good good girls at the hotel. We took them out for a long walk and picked up thai for dinner.
I really like DC. I feel like its a city I could live in, which is kind of a huge deal for a die hard new yorker like me. Apparently I'm rude there though, asking counter people to multitask... but whatever, I like having an edge.
Saturday night we saw Frank again and met his boyfriend. Then sleepy sleep. Up this morning relatively late. Another long walk, cause I wanted to go to Teaism, which had been really good last time I was in DC. This time however, it kinda sucked and Jen was grumpy. We fixed her up with an egg mcmuffin to compensate for time lost. Checked out, got the car, hit the road.
It took forever to get home. At a rest stop Jen read my mind and brought me the fixins of a root beer float. We jammed to musicals, and the dogs were too exhausted to make much trouble. My mom, also stuck in traffic with my cousins, called and blared gangsta rap for us when we answered. We considered calling back with a response song, but we couldn't decide between Fiona Apple's version of Across the Universe and Rufus Wainwright's version of Across the Universe.
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Attitude Adjustment
Chelsea Motel - Sun, 2010-07-18 16:06
About a month ago I started yet another restaurant job in a long line of restaurant jobs stretching back 12 years. It annoyed me more than most; disorganization, bitchy management, the feeling of always being watched and judged. My schedule changed every week. After being demoted to lunches for an entire week, I was taken aside and given a talk that went like this:
“Your schedule change is a direct result of your attitude.”
“Um, could you be more specific?”
“Not really. It’s nothing that you say or do, it’s mostly the expression on your face.”
“Oh.” (Insert facial expression here).
After much soul searching, I decided to do what I have often fantasized about doing: not go to work anymore. Effective immediately. I wore a bikini when I picked up my paycheck the next day, and suddenly I noticed how very tired and demoralized everyone in the restaurant looked. Apart from me.
So I find myself, at the age of 30, joining the ranks of the unemployed…and loving every second of it.
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An extraordinary Dream
Baggens - Sun, 2010-07-11 08:04
Many years ago I had a most remarkable dream.
I dreamed I was pulled up and out of my body that was laying there asleep in bed.
With dizzying speed I was mysteriously pulled far out into space, with the earth behind me growing smaller and smaller, passing the moon by and heading into the star-filled depths.
I knew not where I was being pulled toward with such increasing velocity. Strangely, I wasn't frightened.
Then in the far distance ahead I saw a small light that was not a star, growing bigger and bigger as I drew nearer and nearer, traveling toward it with increasing velocity.
But then as I grew nearer, as I approached this Great Light the speed of my travel began to slow.. ever slower and slower, almost like coasting in to a dead stop until I came face-to-face with this huge Light unlike anything I had ever seen before. A Light that did not blind...
There I was stopped still.. gently floating there in the vasty deep of space, stripped of all pretense..holding onto nothing... facing this magnificent egg-like shaped of living Light Energy.
Then.. something even more miraculous happened.
I heard a Voice "speak" directly to me, and the Voice now inside my mind did put to me a singular question as It ask:
What have you done to help?"
And in that moment of Light bathing my soul I realized that in all the years of my living I had done nothing to help.. nothing save that of helping myself from beginning to end.
Then, with a deafening roar like that of a great waterfall all happening for several seconds inside my head, I opened my eyes to find myself again in bed where I had always been, now wide awake and wondering what had just happened.
For hours afterwards I suffered with a pounding headache.
Even now, after so many years of having that most memorable dream, I have yet to answer my own question as I continue to wonder." title="Atom feed">Site Feed
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CSA Week 5: No, I won’t turn on the stove.
Kate, Girl Reporter - Thu, 2010-07-08 16:45
Ok, I just looked at the 10-day forecast and there’s no break in sight. The heat, it is here to stay. The stove, it is staying off as much as possible. This week’s share: -Lettuce -Garlic -Peas -Summer squash -Cucumbers -2 cabbages (one was a swap for MORE cilantro) -Eggs We’ve been out of town [...]
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Defiant & Defeated Kanye
Urbanblight - Tue, 2010-07-06 18:24
I love everything about Kanye’s new single. I love the beat. I love the King Crimson sample.
And I love the cover art for the single.
I haven’t been excited about anything he’s done for years, so this is a welcomed change.
I only kinda like the lyrics – but if he’s got something to say on the rest of the forthcoming album, he’ll earn these lyrics.
Here’s hoping it’s not just empty posturing.
Kanye West – Power
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Ch-ch-ch-Changes!
Treslervania - Mon, 2010-07-05 22:54
I should really be asleep right now and hopefully will be headed that direction right after this post. I'm all jittery with nervous energy. The actual incorporation happened last week, and tomorrow is my first day in the new office. I'm officially a business owner, which is really kind of awesome and cool and all. Also, terrifying.
For a while there I couldn't figure out why this venture, as opposed to the dozens of other career risks I've taken in the past 5 years, was causing me such anxiety. Why should this business be any different than the hosting company I ran for a year, or the tech department I just finished establishing at my last job? Why is this one giving you the fear, Sam?
Oh right, this isn't a job, it's my life. This is finally it. The culmination of all the experience and thought that I've poured into this since I left theatre way back when. This is the company that I've been dying to build forever, and I'm finally doing it. Wow. This isn't a finite job, or a side project or hobby. If this goes as planned it will be my occupation for life and my legacy that I leave behind me when I'm gone. How good can we make it?
In the coming days I will undoubtedly write much more about CNDP. I'll tell you all what it is, and what we do, and the theory and thought process behind it all. For now, I just wanted to take a moment to reflect on all this, and let my friends and family know that everything is pretty amazing in my world right now, but if I seem on edge, or nervous, or distracted, it's because I've got a lot of stress and pressure in my life right now. Good things and great opportunities, but the buck stops here, for all intents and purposes.
Wish me luck!
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Site Update #999,999
Treslervania - Mon, 2010-07-05 22:16
Hey! Yeah, I've been away-from-blog for a while, but I'm coming back around. I sat down tonight to do a simple Sam-update (coming next) and found my blog dang near un-usable!
* Spam bots cracked the CAPTCHA so comments are now off until I solve that issue.
* If you left a comment recently, there is a better than average chance I might delete it in the purge of the bazillion SPAM comments. I'm sorry about this, and you should be able to re-post it soon. Alternatively, ask me for a login and you can comment safely till your heart's content forever.
* Something is wacky with images on the site. By 'wacky' I mean, they aren't showing up. Soon to be resolved.
* And finally, this is an outdated version of Drupal, and I need to upgrade it.
Expect all this and more in the coming week. In other news I also want to spruce up the theme a little, but overall like the layout I have going on here.
Cheers,
Sam
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